A little whisper in the dark

Freedom

...... what I wanted when sought to end a near 3 year relationship. I got my way, had my freedom. But to quote one of my favourite music groups, Lighthouse Family,

......and if I relocated,
to where the grass is greener,
maybe,
I'll be happy again.
But i'm a little bit disappointed,
now I've got my freedom,
but I'm still, looking over the fence......

......you'll always want what you haven't got......



Close friends would have been hit with an offer to send this song over online, in the hopes they would somehow understand how I feel, from time to time. Some get it, some don't. Others can't even hear the lyrics clearly.

The way things, human mentality is, you work long and hard to get something, then when you get too much of it, you want to take a break from it. And so the cycle repeats. Perhaps even Bill Gates gets tired of thinking of what to do with his billions, and just leaves them in the bank. And so the paradox results. Do I want it or don't I want it? How much is too much?

And in between that relationship, girls have come into and left my life, but those that I fancied, were not willing to be part of my life, and those that wanted to be part of my life, I didn't fancy enough to make a real effort.

I no longer hold much hope for any particular girl, but I can't deny that I miss having a hand to hold while walking down the street, someone to talk to when there's a quarrel at home, someone to fall asleep on my shoulder on the bus on the way back.

Wouldn't that be nice to have again? But like everything else, there's always strings attached......

posted by Chung Leong @ 3:01 AM